“Mom!!!!!!!!! Can I make bacon?” My youngest son yelled as he barreled into my “office” aka the tiny corner of my bedroom where I’ve set up an old wooden folding table and chair to serve as command central during the
shut in. I was in the middle of working, via a video call, with a client who was having a big surge of emotion that needed my caring attention and presence…a tough time for an interruption. I felt the swell of frustration. I felt my breath. And before I said anything to anyone, I closed my eyes and went inward.
The sacred pause. One of the things that meditation teaches us, quite literally, is how to feel what we’re feeling without leaping into action. If you’ve begun a meditation practice you’ve heard this before. How come it works? As we practice mindfulness, whether it’s returning to the breath or body sensations, we engage the prefrontal cortex, our brain’s command center, the home of complex thinking. The more we feel what we feel and engage our executive functioning the better we become at feeling and thinking before action. Hence, me stopping to breathe when my son interrupted me rather than yell and hence making a real mess out of things.
Stopping did two things for me. First, it helped me keep grounded. When I made room for the feeling sensations happening, I met my frustration, I didn’t try banish it. I internally said, “it’s ok” to what was rising up. This is key for all of us to remember. Meditation isn’t necessarily
about transcendence or calm in the way we might imagine it to be. It’s about being with and meeting experience. Opening our hearts to feelings that might be incredibly big or overwhelming. In this opening of mind and heart to our experience we can create more center and ground. Secondly, stopping and noticing got my executive functioning on board. Did I really wanna holler at my child in front of an upset client? Yeah. No.
Is this skill built quickly? Not in my experience. It’s like going to the gym. It takes more than one session of lifting to cultivate strength, but it’s well worth the effort. And there’s no time like this present moment to start or continue to build our ability to stop rather than react to feel rather than do.
Begin with doable sessions of seated
meditation of 5-15 minutes one or more times a day. The easiest way to practice mindfulness is to notice
your breath, and each time your attention wanders (and it will), return to the sensations of breath. If you need more support there are a number of free guided meditations and books for beginners out there to support your practice.
Oh, how did it end with my son? After the pause I took a big breath and just whispered, “Honey…” and nodded my head toward the computer in front of me. He stopped dead in tracks and mouthed, “Sorry Mom!” then ran back out.
May you be healthy.
May you be happy.
May you be safe.
May you be free.